Last night I went to DR. Ahmad’s clinic, he is more than a family doctor to me. He is like a councillor, the one who always boost my motivation to chase after my dream, to be a doctor.
So basically I need to take the 3rd shot of hepatitis B. The 1st shot was taken 7 months ago, while the 2nd shot was taken 1 month after that. Dr. Saaidah, our college/IB coordinator had email us regarding this shot, that is necessary to be taken by ALL MEDIC students. At first I was confused, because I thought this shot is compulsory to all students who are about to fly aboard – to prevent from infectious disease. But my fellow engineering friends need not to take them.
So, I just let my confusion lingers in the air, until last night.
Me : Why we need to take this shot?
Dr. A : Well, as the medical student, you’ll exposed to bacteria, gems and virus, or common disease from the patient. Prevention is better than cure right?
Me: Owh. Okay. (Avoid seeing my upper arm, yet I can still feel the pain under the skin as the needle poke slowly). So, err ‘hepa’ is heart right?
Dr. A : Nope. Hepa is liver.
Me : yes. I mean, liver. ( HATI (in Malay) is liver. Then, Jantung (in Malay) is heart) )
Dr. A : The word ‘hepa’ is derived from American Latin which means liver. And titis, anything end with ‘titis’ means inflammation or disease. These words are from American Latin. So HEPA-TITIS is liver disease,
Me : penyakit hati!
Dr. A : Yeah you got it right.
Ironically, we might talk about the same thing, at the same time, but from a very different view. While he explained ‘HEPATITIS’ , my mind keep digesting it as LIVER DISEASE. I’m not bluffing, I was thinking about the HEART disease.
Actually, it was ‘liver disease’.
****** Okay, I’m getting confused here ************
Firstly, I’m not a pious girl, but I remembered during the Islamic Education’s class, my USTAZ once told us,
“ There is one essential part of the human’s body. If it’s pure, then the rest of body will be fine- and the organ is HEART”
Rasul Allah (sallallahu 'alaihi wa sallam) said:
"Beware, in the body there is a piece of flesh; if it is sound, the whole body is sound
and if it is corrupt the whole body is corrupt, and hearken it is the heart."
“ Every sin that you commit will leave a black mark/ dot in your heart. Sooner or later, your heart will be dark as pitch-black, and that will definitely explained your rebellious/barbaric/ mean attitude.”
Have you ever heard that, “It is not the colour of your skin, or your body size, or your maybe your height that define who you are. But your HEART is. ”
Well, maybe that’s explained how the ‘KIND-HEARTED’ word is derived.
I been thinking for a couple of days, what is the colour of my heart? Is it white- pure? Or maybe it is as dark as charcoal?
Or, just assume it will be in between, my heart is GREY. And I realize, assumption kill!
One of the top factors of this disease is a stubborn virus - GOSSIP.
Being a girl, you can’t help listening to all the gossips, almost every day. The girl next door having baby outside marriage, mr. Z is a failure boy, he can’t afford to find any job and now his parent need to pay his loan (PTPTN), She might looks nice in the outside, but surprisingly she practised black magic and injected ‘susuk’ , His father is Dato’, no wonder he won the competition, and the list goes on and on and on. Correction, it is applied to boys as well, so being a HUMAN, sounds better.
It’s eerie to know that, not only the lips- that utter the words, will be judged in the Judgement Day. So does the ears that do the listening part. At times I feel like running milestone when this kind of conservation started. Especially when I listen it from my mother, my teacher or grandmother or just family members, I will try to defend that persons ( if I know them) or I will just start to run a new topic, make random compliments or ask stupid questions to distract the main storyline.
And sometimes I just get carried away with the conversation. Or be the one who started it, ( I admit it)
I just knew that this exposure of news make me closer to feel insecure. Imagine you heard about bad news from different sources, and one day, the sun didn’t brighten your day as you want it to be, engulf by the solemn clouds, you know that the time had come, and when tickle of rains start to fall off, the first thing popped up in your mind will be
“WHAT’S THE PEOPLE GOING TO SAY ABOUT MY FAILURE/SIN _____?’
It ain’t fun. Because some people are brave and blunt at the same time, make nasty comment right to your face. You have no choice but to swallow the words, bit by bit.
And to some, they are sensitive about it or cowardly gossip about it behind YOUR back, which was, WORST.
And I don’t think 3rd shot is enough to prevent this disease. HEPATITIS can be blocked before spread to the rest of the body but HEART DISEASE is like a contagious long-life sickness. We pick up the virus anytime, anywhere. Yup, the one to be blamed – the words.
Pick the right words, do the second thought before deliver them, verbally.
Apart from that, a practical solution to re-whitening the heart, making it crystal clear is ,
"A great amount of remembrance of death and recitation of the Qur'an." [Tirmidhi].
Finally, just make sure the heart is in good condition, physically and spiritually. :D