whoooooooooooooot

madam TIK TOK TIK TOK

im about to be insane, today is my birthday! and I will be dead if I couldnt finish this 2nd draft.

oh yeah, TOK thank you for the BIG present

sparkling psycho :)

OPTION

People, we always have option(s) to look at life in positive or negative way. Then, I realized I should take a lot of negative situations and look at them in a funnier way.

It doesn't matter how bad you feel about EE, your TOK first draft ( assigments), at friends who fail to fullfil their promise due to others' commitment, and about your environment.

because

I don't wanna spend my life wallowing in self-pity and I don't want to spend life being insecure.

I think I'm really fun and carefree. Optimistic is what I keep reminding myself to hold on to. In addition, I hate pessimist,

" You can't do that!"

" Seriously you will be dead. It is tough, even smart people didn't excel at it!"

"Let's see if you are capable to do it," -sigh-

Watch me! I'm able to do that.

Pn. Anita , my english teacher once told us a story about the frog. How a frog won the battle by reaching at the top of the tower. No, he was not the fastest among the all the frogs, nor he was the smartest. but

he is deaf, he cannot heard the negative thought, the boo-ing sound and the s***** curse. HE is the champion, no matter what people said. I guess we heard millions of inspired story, since we were young, we being fed with motivational stories, how our prophet MUHAMMAD won people's heart in MADINAH due to his honesty and never-ending efforts, ALBERT EINSTEIN ,the stupid boy who grew up to be A genius, ABRAHAM LINCON who fails few times before won the president position ,

and many more.

how sad it could be when we just wait and see the happy ending. Why don't we create our own story and draw the finishing line. BE inspired and be positive.

and

I think people has misconception about me and my personality. Maybe because I will do exactly what I want when I want to. mind my own thought and do it in my own way. hahaha, I almost laughed when one of the boys comment me on fb

" first impression? you are selekeh"

haha, it is indeed true. in college, im damn selekeh.( exagerration) I dont care much bout thing, about people, about my belongings. i JUST CAN'T HELP IT. But I care bout my friends, and people that I love most - my parents!.

so people, be inspired!

OVER BY fynn jamal

what more do you want to hear from me?
is there anything you wish to see?
a joke? a laugh? a smile? a cry?
a scream? a song? a lullaby?

see i know we are not who we were
i live in denial, remember?
so please don't ask me to open my eyes
don't wanna wake up and realize--

the honeymoon's over
that i should better
be mature.

i'm sorry i do not know what to say
do understand i'm breaking, but hey
when you tell me that you are leaving
don't think i did not see it coming

see, of course i saw we no longer
having stuff we enjoy together
but can we play along our part
and not parade this change of heart?

are you really sure
that we off better
and over?

what more can i say when you wish to leave today
i wont break down now and burst
but --
would you like to have one last breakfast?

AL-CHEMIST

HEhe, the exam is finally over. fuh?! actually my exam was held about 1 week and 1 day ( to be exact). Since I have to sit for 6 subjects, so each day is occupied with 1 subject, started with the first subject - on monday and ended up on friday. And the next monday, left only Biology paper.

so, here is my summary :-

1) chemistry : paper 1, i have left with 5 mins, and still i had tons of questions haven't read, of course haven't answer them yet. and there you go ," 5 mins, left" okay, thank you Madam invigilator. It's SHOW TIME! yes, every bullet not gonna be wasted.and hell yes, most of the answers chosen were not coming from my brain, they derived from the muscle tissues of my hands. But the tragic part was when I was done with chem's paper and happily walking to our CAFETERIA, guesS who I met halfway? A ah, MY BELOVED CHEM'S TEACHER.



" You did poorly for paper 1. 22/40" and he left. okay okay okay... :( :( :(
FirstlY, I felt grateful, at least the marks were beyond my expectation. but to be honest, deep inside I'm poignant. It was my first paper and well bad omen, i guess . ( okay, I shouldn't believe in it)..

but

In every difficulty lies an opportunity, it doesn't matter how many incorrect answers I had done, or how upset my teacher and I could be, but I actually dig up the hole of opportunity. to make it simple, at least I have a big room for improvement. It is better to make mistakes now rather than doing it later, in my final IB exam which is only 6 months away. and I really really really believe in Allah. Allah can change his servant's heart in a split second, a ah including my heart, yours , them and every single creature in this world. The most gracious and powerful, Allah has hidden his best gift for us, and it is our job to discover it ourselves. So, lets reveal our gift and never forget to praise Him for HIS kindness.


Tuesday : MATHEMATICS
wED : agama ISLAM and MALAY A1
thursday : english HL
friday : Business and Management

Monday : Biology HL

monday's night : which is now, blogging and facebooking :)

Oh, my flight is on Wednesday, SABAH i miss you so!

I DONT HAVE ANY ISSUE

YOU AND ME
WE DON'T REALLY HAVE AN ISSUE. YOU ARE NOT my friend nor foe. and please, i don't wanna have any connection with you, ever again. now will you please, leave?

I know it sounds harsh, but face it man. Everything is over, i mean it, OVVVVVVEERRRRR.
you can accuse me for being intolerate, for throwing non-stop tantrum, for spreading stories. but oh yeaahhh your story is far more dramatic than mine, kan?

so why don't you sell off your story, and count your blessings. I do forgive but not to forget it. If only my brain have a cip which stores all the database, I will plug-in my brain in LRC (library) 's computer. Why? Because the computer contains powerful VIRUS, and sure can invade the cip. Make it short, delete all those memories.

But I cannot do that, get me?




soooooo




BYE! please leave, i reallly2 mean it.

bermuda triangle?

a ah, because you no longer be seen, anywhere,

huhuhu, abah i miss you,

to : -

yup, this is for you. continue reading...

i cant text yo, coz i love keyboard much much more than keypad. calling will cause the credit running out without i even realize it.( yup because of the stupid silent moment juga, x worth it)

face to face? a major NO NO,

talking to people, my trusting system turns topsy-turvy. i rather keep this silent.

and this is the only way, to pour my feeling outta my heart,

can i call you jerk? i really want to, screaming at your face and walk away, hahah :) should I? could I?

nah, am not that mean.

friend,

my life takes me down a bunch of crazy roads. I have personal probs, break-ups, friendship conflict, my health ( toplist)

and I had to figure out how to be cool, and less gelabah, tryin' so hard to hide my pale face by laughing out loud, wearing facade over this pathetic jemmy

and and calling my parents so often, their voice - enough to comfort me. ( usually i call more than 2 times per day)

i dont wanna fall apart when the roads gets bumpy, i am stronger. i am.

the thing is, when am going through this emoshitt probs, its great to have you by my side. but no matter what you say, its not going to make this better but at least you listened. its great, having you, as one of those friends who are willing to lend your ears, to me. because the more i talked about the situation, the more I'd become to the answer n create my own solutions.

and thats is when I can move on and get over it.

Dear friend,

THANK YOU A BUNCH. what else I can say?? you really like a chlorox. help me to ease my working by pulling off the dirty out of my lovable shirt. thanks chlorox. but

why, the most trusted person dared to break the trust? SHIT happens huh? a ah. and Im not expecting you to be a perfect friend. but what is your real intention?? laughing at the back? whatttt???

and am really shocked, when am playing, the boy really uttered the message that is meant for u,

it is when am not looking, big winds up coming along,

follows by thunder

and you left me in guilt. you know this is the hardest part, what would you expected me to say? to act? when im living under the same roof as her.??

i feel like a betrayer, am I???life goes on, im sorry.

it goes on.

no matter how dramatic or traumatic , it would never damage me severely. INSYALLAH. and I can truly say that, i've never been afraid to do something to THE FULLEST out of fear of getting hurt.

you know, every relationship,

i learn what i love about that person, as well as what I dont about the person. and through all of that, wind up becoming more clearer.

its okay to let go. its okay to enjoy. i never forget the vow, wont let the friendship split up. i always remember the time I got trouble, and needy. but are you always there? or am im the one who is despertely searching for you?

" i dont need anyone"

" i know how to rely only myself and heal myself"

and thats lie. that i owez feed in my mind. losing friend is never easy,

and FRIENDS ARE NOT GREAT AT EVERYTG. but they still friend. :)

i dont care much bout my things, i dont care much for people. bt i do care bout friend, look up you'll see. i see those light, even in the pitch black darkness.

and, iam learning about myself. the cursor pointed me. i knew,

SOME MISTAKE IS HARD TO UNDONE

i lose. we lose. i keep asking, am not a goood captain? maybe it was about the external factors? should i take the blame? i wanna win, so badly.

win doesnt mean everything, i know it. i just know it. i guess i knew it.

mistake is hard to undone, but i had no control over my own flaws. some mistakes are funny. one day, i will turn back, and laugh at myself. how silly i am.

high? tipsy? merry?

dont mix caffeine with your coke. it drives me nut, drives me crazy.